1. What is your occupation?
Police Dispatcher.

2. What color are your socks right now?
Grey

3. What are you listening to right now?
Jack Johnson

4. What was the last thing that you ate?
Bagel.

5. Can you drive a stick shift?
Hope so, or else i'm walkin home from work..

6. If you were a crayon, what color would you be?
Forest green.

7. Last person you spoke to on the phone?
Some drunk kid

8. Do you like the person who sent this to you?
always

9. How old are you today?
24, 19 days t'll bday

10. Favorite drink?
cold beer

11. What is your favorite sport to watch?
Baseball

12. Have you ever colored your hair?
the right way? once or twice.

13. What is your full name?
Missy D

14. Favorite food?
Thai food

15. Last movie you watched?
Don't remember..i like tv series

16. Favorite Day of the year?
thats a weird question. i dont know

17. What do you do to vent anger?
usualy something i regret the next day

18. What was your favorite toy as a child?
A flounder bath toy from the little mermaid

19. What is your favorite season?
Autumn

20. Hugs or kisses?
depends on who its comin from

21. Cherry or Blueberry?
blueberry

22. Do you want your friends to post back?
sure

23. Who is most likely to respond?
?

24. Who is least likely to respond?
?

26. When was the last time you laughed?
really hard? it's been a while

27. What is on the floor of your closet?
shoes

28. Who is the friend you have had the longest that you are sending this to?
im not sending it to anyone

29. Who is the friend you have known the shortest that you are sending this to?
see above

30. Favorite smells?
Fall in Chicago, Spring in New Jersey, Winter in Boston, Summer in NYC

31. Inspires You?
People. music. the weather..?

32. What are you afraid of?
I hate being away from famile all the time

33. Plain, cheese or spicy hamburgers?
Cheese.

34. Favorite car
my old honda..ya had to punch the dash to turn on the radio. love it

35. Favorite cat breed?
whatever

36. Number of keys on your key ring?
7

37. How many years at your current job?
1 almost

38. Favorite day of the week?
the fourth day of my rotation

39. How many states have you lived in?

3

Two good friends of mine broke up today. Of course I don't know all the details, but it seems like a case of retribution. Lets say my friends are person A and person B. Well, A and B had a past history, years ago..that didn't work out cuz B cheated. Fast forward a few years later and A started dating person C. They broke up. After that A and B started dating again, and this time it was for reals. Until...today. Turns out, A just can't get her mind off person C and has to go back and get her closure..another chance..retribution...who knows.

Anyway, all this to say, I'm layin in bed with the gf talking about it and I simply state that although I feel like person A is being selfish, I totally understand it, and would be lying if i said I've never done that before.... throwing away something good for something that you know deep down is definitely not worth it..but for some reason you still pursue. That convo then led to this.

GF: Are you gunna leave me for someone you still love?
Me: Never, i'm already with the person i love.
Me: Are you gunna leave me?
GF: Of course not!
Me: Do you really think I would leave you or cheat.
GF: Based on what you were saying earlier...well..ya know, a leopard can't change it's spots...

Burned.

Anyway, do ya'll agree that it's healthy to keep an ex that you loved in your heart when you've moved on to a new relationship? You know what i mean, i don't know how to word it. I think it's healthy and okay, it's human...right?

Also, I am aware of how anticlimactic this story is. sorry.

Unpacking and moving into this new apt has been such a wild experience. I've lived with some of my past ex's, but i've never dated someone and moved into a new place with them. It's a really...demanding...expierence. Physically, emotionally, mentally, in every way I have been pushed these past two weeks...and, I love it. I'm making a...we're making a home together.. I can't wait to see what more we're capable of doing together...



Also, maybe part of me feels really good about things cuz I threw out A LOT of shit this move. Stuff that I've been holding on to for years! Unhealthy things...well, things that were unhealthy for me to STILL have. Ya know that shit that you never really look at but you know it's there..a that's enough to make you feel safe... I threw out all THAT shit. I feel lighter. It wasn't hard either. I didn't let myself get all wrapped up in it, i just continuously moved my hand from the pile to the garbage bag..then brought it outside..and moved on to the next thing..


I'm so happy to be back in a city.


Also, it's been two months since i've had a pack of cigarettes...

I found out last night that my mother might be extremely sick. I find out tomorrow morning the full details. It feels so surreal. The thought of losing her, of packing up and moving back home, of the effect this may have on everyone in my family.... I can't believe im writing this online.... I'm trying anything to make me feel better...all i wanna do is puke...

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(stolen from all over)

84% Dennis Kucinich
82% Mike Gravel
70% Barack Obama
69% Chris Dodd
68% John Edwards
66% Joe Biden
66% Bill Richardson
64% Hillary Clinton
44% Ron Paul
36% John McCain
33% Rudy Giuliani
30% Mitt Romney
29% Mike Huckabee
22% Tom Tancredo
21% Fred Thompson

2008 Presidential Candidate Matching Quiz

You are Strength

Courage, strength, fortitude. Power not arrested in the act of judgement, but passing on to further action, sometimes obstinacy.

This is a card of courage and energy. It represents both the Lion's hot, roaring energy, and the Maiden's steadfast will. The innocent Maiden is unafraid, undaunted, and indomitable. In some cards she opens the lion's mouth, in others she shuts it. Either way, she proves that inner strength is more powerful than raw physical strength. That forces can be controlled and used to score a victory is very close to the message of the Chariot, which might be why, in some decks, it is Justice that is card 8 instead of Strength. With strength you can control not only the situation, but yourself. It is a card about anger and impulse management, about creative answers, leadership and maintaining one's personal honor. It can also stand for a steadfast friend.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

Their is this slight strand of hair that catches your eye and turns to hug the curve of your chin
It falls into place instantly, naturally, everytime
I want to be that in your life
I want to turn and bend in ways to catch your fall
I want to compromise my composure
Naturally, collaps at your feet
Brush beside your cheek
kiss your chin
and wait
I will wait

I've thought of calling you "the one that got away"
But realized how foolish that would be since I keep you in my heart close to my chest
Your that steady beat by which i live by
You are my bass
Living inside me
Heavy and solid my steps fall in to place
I can feel you, I can still your face
It reminds me of home, of my youth, of nights spent sitting in that diner booth where i realized the world was mine for the taking
But all I want now is you.

I can't believe this is the last week of 2006! I had a bit of driving to do today, so I got lost in my head just thinking about all that's happened. This past year has shown me how to love, trust... and just feel in ways that i never knew were possible. It definitely brought some pain as well, but it was well worth it. I think I learned the most this past year..opposed to just experiencing it. I took a lot away from it all, every month was some new lesson for me....I can't believe it's coming to an end..I almost kinda feel like I'm not ready for it to be over.

...I miss living in Chicago..

sucks to be you....It was 71 here yesterday and it's 68 today. If you wanna know the truth though,...i'd much rather be playin in the snow with ya'll today : )

Sooo, you may or may not have heard about the ruling made in Maryland: once initial sexual penetration happens, a woman forfeits her right to say no: she can't change her mind, and if the other person forcibly continues it is not considered rape. The full article as reported on indymedia can be found at
http://portland.indymedia.org/en/2006/10/348399.shtml
or you can go to the original report at
http://www.thewbalchannel.com/news/10198629/detail.html.

Please take a minute to write/email/call the MD delegate Jean Cryor and tell her that this is UNACCEPTABLE. Her phone # is: (410) 841-3090, (301) 858-3090, or (800) 492-7122 x3090. Her address is Jean Cryor, Lowe House Office Bldg, Rm 226, 84 College Ave., Annapolis, MD, 21401-1991, and her email is jean.cryor@house.state.md.us.

You are Mahogany

Stable and decisive, you lack the hyper energy of most orange colors. You're still energetic, but you tend to project a peaceful, relaxed vibe. You love to feel cozy. You often rather wrap up in a blanket than go out for the night.

Folks...seriously avoid tearing this tendon at all costs! I really dont think i've ever been in more pain. Foots all wrapped up, I have this shoe cast thingy, I cant run for over a month, I shouldn't even be standing for more than 20 min at a time...but...everything will be fine..one little word peoples: Vicodin

Seriously though, it hurts like a bitch..

Even more seriously, LISTEN to your body!
I worked out, my foot felt a little sore, didnt think anything major of it, I pushed myself and ran again the next day, and now here i am...sucks!

I think i remember a certain little somebody tellin me to be careful of something like this happening a couple months ago....wished i had listened!

Date:	2006-11-12 13:08
Subject:	About to go to the hospital..
Security:	Public
Mood:	Hurt

I swear, by the time i die, I will have broken every bone in my body!

update soon...

So, im here, im adjusted, what next? Things aren't moving fast enough. I need to get out there and kick some ass! Im getting a car tomorrow, i start work on thur, and school is right around the corner..it just doesnt seem fast enough though. No more rushing, no more planning things by the minute, no more skillfully mapping out bus a train routes. Even when everything starts up here, I fear that I still won't feel full. Everyone and everything happens so slow here, meanwhile my mind is racing a mile a minute.Its so weird, cuz I thought the midwest was slow, but it was still a city, so really not so much.. and now im on the east coast, but in bumblefuck...you'd think it would even out right?

( only thing that's keepin me sane right now )

So this is the back of my parents house where im livin for the time being..this is where i want yall to came and stay with me...I want to go camping and hiking in their backyard..i know it's cheesey but i think it would be shit loads of fun..plus i've wanted to do it for 2 years now, but im too chicken to do it on my own..the woods go pretty deep..

( Pretty leaves )

Sooo, Im here. After a HARRRible flying experience. I got to the airport around 10-10:30 and got to my rents house around 8. it's only an hour and a half flight....Blahhh
I was sitting next to this girl who was moving to brooklyn from california...she was psycho. people from california are weird..just sayin. She kept on singing really loud, everyone was turning to look...I was just like... Sorry guy's... it's not me..by the way..does anyone wanna trade seats?? kayyy didn't think so.. just thought id try.. So now im here...it's very quite..but beautiful. I love the fact that i came home to do my shit..but it fuckin hurts..I miss my family..the people who actually know me. I keep on randomly bursting into tears..I thought that id hold on to it a bit and then deal with the change of things in a week or so, but apparently I have no say in it. I just fuckin miss you all so much..already!

Im gunna go try and see if i can take picture of the backyard..its soooo pretty!

- When I think of love, relationships, women..any of that, it makes me feel a little sick..like I wanna puke.

- I wish I had just moved here and I have the chance to redo all of the relationships I have with everyone here.

- I want to run away again.

- 11 more days and the love of my life will be in my arms!

- I've found that I have a very hard time telling the truth when I think it'll do more bad than good....(im a wuss)

- whenever I like someone it's never the right time for them,..and when people like me it's never the right time for me, and when we like eachother, it's never the right time for either of us....I GIVE UP!

Please stop squeezing my heart...it pumps fine on it's own.

- Me